I went to the obstetrician’s office this week. Everything seems to be going well. The true test will be in a few weeks when I have my level 2 ultrasound. We will find out the sex of the baby, but more importantly, I will find out how the baby is developing. It will show if there is potential for some birth defects and let us know about internal organs and brain development. I am a little nervous about this one.
The doctor put me on a daily baby aspirin to prevent preeclampsia. I do not have high blood pressure; it is actually pretty low. At 20 weeks, some women have a random increase in blood pressure and Type 1 Diabetes makes me more susceptible to this risk.
I made it past the first trimester. Most people say that I am in the clear. I don’t feel that way. Now, there is another long list of things that could go wrong. I try to maintain a positive outlook. I am doing everything beyond the best of my ability. I surprise myself how disciplined I have become. The emotional toll is difficult and often I feel alone. I have always felt pretty lonely. I think most diabetics feel the same way. I tend to hide out when things get difficult because the only person I have ever trusted to get the job done is myself. Others can’t always understand the importance of what is being asked or the task at hand.
Overall, there is uncertainty and things in daily life may not go as planned. I have faith in myself to work through it and adjust accordingly. Life will always be extra work compared to the average person, but that is what makes my life so much more interesting and amazing. I feel excited for the future and the uncertainty.